I guess it is obvious that waiting is hard. We have all experienced that whether it be waiting for the birth of a child, waiting for an adoption, waiting for Christmas or waiting for our birthday as a child! Now that we are within that target range of "could be any time" the wait for LOA (Letter of Acceptance) is nagging at me. I just want to get our daughters home!
We were discussing this wait at dinner last night. Someone told me I needed to be patient. Hmmmm... So I've been evaluating the whole scope of emotions over this wait, and I can honestly say it isn't that I'm pushing against the Lord's timing, being a control freak or any of those things. I couldn't quite explain it, but I think the story and definition of "impatience" that I found on a friend's blog last night sums it up very well. Thanks for sharing this Jane!
I "stole" this from a friend over at Adoption Makes Six
A journal post from an anonymous adoptive parent:
"Here's
something I wrote about 2/3 through our first adoption process. I
surely did not understand before being an expectant-adoptive-parent how
hard the wait was. I did not understand how love grows before you
actually meet your child. When watching my friend go through an adoption
(before ours) I kept wondering why she was worried or not trusting in
God's timing. I had no clue really about the emotions involved. I have
since apologized to her! :-) So I have to keep that in mind when talking
to people who don't understand ... to understand that I was the same
way once. However, I had to "write this" to counter all the comments
sent my way about trusting God (even from my husband!) I had to put into
words that I could still trust in the Lord and be "impatient" but
impatience had to be defined….
Impatience
Defined
In our adoption process…
Impatience does not mean I don’t think everything will work out okay;
Impatience does not mean I am a control freak;
Impatience does not mean I do not trust in Providence;
Impatience does not mean I do not have confidence in my agency;
Impatience does not mean I don’t suppose my child is being cared for until I’m united;
Impatience does not mean I do not believe God’s timing is best.
